Protected: It’s kinda puzzling… January 31, 2010
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Words I Couldn’t Say January 16, 2010
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Words I Couldn’t Say – Rascal Flatts
In a book, in a box, in the closet
In a line, in a song I once heard
In a moment on a front porch late one june
In a breath inside a whisper beneath the moon
There it was at the tip of my fingers
There it was on the tip of my tongue
There you were and I had never been that far
There it was the whole world wrapped inside my arms
And I let it all slip away
What do I do now that you’re gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldn’t say
There’s a rain that will never stop falling
There’s a wall that I tried to take down
What I should have said just wouldn’t pass my lips
So I held back and now we’ve come to this
And it too late now
What do I do now that you’re gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say
Should have found a way to tell you how i felt,
Now the only one I’m telling is myself
What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say
Crashed January 14, 2010
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I crashed today. Completely.
Need to reboot myself. Somehow.
Casino January 14, 2010
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I think that casino should have a new casino game – Guess En Xian’s Mood. The odd of guessing correct whether I’m happy or sad at any moment, is 1 to 2. No, no, no. Make it 1 to 5.
Easy?
Frankly speaking, even I myself don’t know. One moment I can be happy, the next moment, I can just go the other way. Call it bipolar? Maybe. I don’t know.
It’s not that I’m not trying. I’m trying real (and very) hard to stay positive but… sometimes, I just can’t. It really feels as though I’m stuck in a hole and there’s no way for me to get out of it.
I try to keep myself but not matter how busy I am, the feelings still come back and stab me real hard in my heart that I can literally feel the pain. I need to stop whatever I’m doing, wipe away any tears that I’ve shed and pick up myself again.
I really hate going through this every now and then. I hate it.
I WANT to be positive. I NEED to be positive. I HAVE to be positive.
All It Takes… January 11, 2010
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All it takes is ONE day to crumble the wall that I’ve been building over the past few weeks.
You win. I lose.
Yup, I’m pretty much of a loser and I hate myself for feeling this way.
Running seems to be the only remedy – at least 7 rounds around the track, but I can’t run forever, can I?
I think she’s right. I’m losing my passion in *** ****** not *****. I will have to must find back my passion somehow, by myself this time.
2010 is going to be a great year. I’m not going to let myself ruin it.
P.S: To all my friends reading this entry, just give me some due respect by not asking me anything regarding this. Thanks for your concern.
